Friday

My Computer has been down at home all week, so this is my first time to get to my computer. Today I am back to work so it was another early morning. It was a good morning I got here on time which is great! Peter and Megan were still asleep so I did miss seeing them, but sometimes it makes for an easier exit when they are sleeping. Today they go with their dad to a co-op. I had everything laid out and ready. I hope it all goes smoothly. I guess I will know if it does not. I feel as the mom I need to make sure everything is perfect for their day.

I have been dealing this week with Megan and her little tantrums. I just want to go to my room, bury my head under my pillow and scream. I feel like all I do these days is discipline her. I know that is what God would have me do. For instance, last night, I was on the phone trying to schedule something for work and she wanted her "baby Jesus" to be wrapped up "better" and she proceeded to scream right in my face. I immediately got off the phone and spanked her so hard. I hated it, but I felt like for the first time I handled the incident right when it happened. I have a habit of not dealing with things immediately, which is a problem. I know it will get better I just have to be one step ahead and I struggle with that is about all aspects of my life.

Oh well I have just poured out my frustrations. I am hoping for a good day today. Today is the day that we close on my grandaddy's house and it is such a hard thing. I spent a lot of my time there the past 20 years of my life and I loved him so much. Everything from the walls to the toilet paper were evidence of his presence. I loved him more than words. He was such a stickler for rules and for things to be perfect, but he was a constant presence in my life and I will forever be thankful for him. I will have furniture and knick knacks, but the feeling of his presence when I walked into his condo I will miss. I will just have to tuck those feelings into my heart forever.

Enough saddness.

I better get to work and get focused on my day. I pray all who read this have a great day and that He will show you His little blessings no matter what your struggle.

Monday

Today was a a typical start to a week. Getting up early and starting out very sleepy. MEgan came down about 6:30 to tell me her belly hurt and I of course began to worry that it might develop into something else with all that is going around. The good thing is she is all about her daddy when she is sick. That enabled me to head on to work. Keep in mind had she been sick, I would have stayed home. It is very common for Megan to complain about her stomach. It has slacked off some now that I am working more days, but still you never know. She has a great fear of throwing up and so anytime she feels the least bit sick it scares her.

Needless to say about 10:30 I got a call from my mom telling me that she had indeed gotten sick. I tried to get everything done and head home. I knew she was in great hands though.
I was thinking today though how I do worry about my kids... I want them to feel well, not hurt or be scared. The thought came to me that our Lord must feel the same way if not even more about us. He hates it when we are hurting or bothered by some big task. If only we would go to him and settle into his presence like our little ones come to us for care. The verse that comes to my mind is one that says, "Come to me all who are weary and I will give you rest".

Luckily I feel she is better. She and Peter both are now laying very quietly in their beds preparing to go to sleep. SUCH PEACE!! I love the sound of their little breath as they sleep.

For now I hope everyone has a great night. Remember the one who will give you rest when you are troubled. He loves it when we run to Him! Goodnight.

THE WEEKEND

This is Sunday! I missed writing yesterday but my computer was down. Yesterday was a great day. I got some cleaning done and then about mid afternoon we went to dinner with some friends and their children. Lorrie and Fred then invited us over for games and we played a new game to me called ROOK. I LOVED IT!!!! It was to me the perfect night, one that I wish could go on forever. Being with great friends. The kids playing and the adults having a great time too. Things like that renew me greatly. Time with friends is wonderful.

Today is Sunday and Caleb and I are cleaning the house and garage out trying to get ready for some new furniture and items that were my grandaddy's. I want to make the perfect space for everything. It amazes me how much junk and stuff we accumulate in such a short amount of time. I just cleaned out not too long ago. Believe it or not Caleb is my organizer and can fit things and arrange things like no other. ( I know that is hard for so many to believe).

It all makes me realize how wonderful God is and how much abundance (family, friends, life) he gives to us whether we see it day to day or not. We get bogged down with mundane weekly routines and forget to thank God EVERY TIME something wonderful happens. Even when the hard things happen we should still praise him. Watching Megan praise the Lord with songs. It is so great to see that even the small things are hidden in her heart. Those too are the things we must be so thankful for. What better gift than a child who at an early age knows to call on the Lord..... Lord thank you for your blessings!!!!

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Today is an early morning for me. I have gotten spoiled all week by being able to sleep in. My little one even slept until 7:30 on some days which is a great start to any day. We have remained fairly well dispite all the flu and sickness going around. I was up all night with some respiratory crud and finally fell asleep in the downstairs chair about 5am only to get back up at 6 for work. Today will be a good day because it is Friday and the weekend is here. Hopefully it will be very restful.