Still Snotty!!

Today Caleb has the kids and so I am at work. I called the doctor and he wants to see them tomorrow in the office for a re-check. Today is also grocery day and so that should be really fun with 2 sick kids. I am hoping to get some things that I can make up adn freeze for when the baby comes. I hope I can think once I get there. I am so ready to have this baby, but then and again.... not really. I am scared. I look at moms with 3+++ kids and they do fine so I will do fine too I assume. I just feel like I have so much left to do to prepare. Caleb seems to think he will be here this week.... YIKES!!! I hope not, well whenever God sees fit for him to come.

I am a little depressed over the fact that my parents have still not come forth to talk with Caleb and I feel like it is not important to them. Eventhough I know I will be fine I would love to have moms help just for the little things that might come up. Until they do though, Caleb does not want them to have contact with us. I pray and cry everynight hoping tomorrow will be better with them.

Oh well I am off and running... back to work.

Are we better yet!!!!

For the past week now we have been so sick at our house. It all started out last Monday with Megan and her high Fever and Peter with mucky yucky eyes and nose. By Wednesday we were at the Dr's office getting heavy antibiotic treatment. The fever continued and continued and well is still around but by Saturday night we were at children's with both children. After 72 hours of antibiotics Peter still had his croup and Megan had a fever of 105.0. I was at my wits end and so we went in. After chest x-rays and sinus x-rays, blood work and breathing treatments. We had a new antibiotic for Megan and Peter was a little better but not great. Yesterday I told Caleb we HAD TO GET OUT OF THE HOUSE!!!! We get get out last night and I think it did them both some good. We went to get a burger and I think they enjoyed the change of scenery. They are both still so pitiful. Today I am at work and Caleb has the kiddos and from what I hear they are surviving. I am trying to get them well so that we can focus on this baby that will be here very soon. Caleb and I have managed to stay well for the most part and hopefully we will get the kids better this week. I must admit though even though I have been a little stir crazy, I will cherish the sweet time that I have had with them. Peter and Megan have been so sick and needy and I am so glad I have been able to be there for them. Lots of hugs and sweet cuddles have come my way lately. I know that life will be getting busier soon and as my skin was crawling to get out the house I just took a deep breath and settled into knowing that I was were I needed to be and that I would always cherish that down time with them. There is nothing like family and there is nothing like the feeling of being there for them when they needed me the most.

A trip to the Zoo!!

Friday afternoon we headed to the zoo, we went with wonderful friends and of course Megan was just in her element. She always has so much fun being with them. As you can see, Peter was worn out. It was a members only, butterfly exhibit. There were so many people there, but we had such a good time and Megan is still talking about it. I am so glad she has good quality friends that love her back. We can not wait until our next trip.

Wonderful Feelings!!!

Today is definitely going to be a beautiful day! I woke up early and got some stuff ready for work and now I am here. I was thinking on my drive in how wonderful the Lord is. He gives us great days despite the rain and cold we just went through just a short time ago. This week I went through my first graduation of nursing students. I must admit I was realy sad. I have taken them as my own and in some ways I think that is good and in other ways, it makes it very hard to part with them. These are not ordinary students, they were my first class and most likely my favorite. I ADORED them so much. These people ranged from 18 all the way up to 60++ years old. I loved them for their shear determination and drive to keep on truckin no matter what the day looked like. For many of them, this was their last if not their only chance to break free and make something of themselves. I know what it is like to go through nursing school and how hard it is. I was single and no children and it was HARD!!! These people have families and are raising grandchildren. Most of them are from abusive situations and are just crawling around in life already. I am so proud of them.

Today we are going to the zoo and I am excited about that too. For many reasons, one would be I really like taking my kids places that they would enjoy. I feel like they trapes around with me all the time and now this is their turn. Also we are going with the Durham clan and we really like being with them too.

Overall it should be a great day and I am hoping to get out of work early or atleast maybe eat some lunch outside.

I hope all who read this have a great day too!!!

This is the day that the Lord has made I will rejoice and be GLAD!!!!

Spring???

I know I know it has been a while since I have written. I have such good intentions, but I just do not. We had a great weekend. We were able to get the yard mowed, and the kids got to go to Aarons birthday party, They love parties!!! I also love seeing them have so much fun. I was able to get some cleaning and organizing done. I am getting a little impatient with all the mess, but I know it will not matter in the end. I think I was a little tired this weekend due to a busy week before. I am feeling better now though.

This week I graduate my first class at school. I have loved them so much. I do not think I will ever have a connection to any other class like I do this group. I am so pleased with who they have become and how far they have come. So many are from run down lives and they have finally accomplished something BIG!!! I know I will shed a tear when they leave.

The kids are getting ready to go down for a nap and so I think I will get a little cleaning done, or maybe not!

He knows my name!

Do you ever feel so insignificant in such a BIG WORLD? I do sometimes. I feel a little overwhelmed with life sometimes. That is not necessarily a bad thing. I guess if I always felt on-top of things there would be something wrong. As a mom sometimes I feel like I am the sounding board for the whole family. Megan and Peter have needs that sometimes only a mommy can handle. I love being needed by them. Many times even Caleb walks in and sometimes it seems as if he just needs to talk. So... we talk and then by the time we are finished he has fallen asleep. Did I say I do love being needed by them. I think that that is one job that comes with wife and motherhood that is a priveledge. There are times though when once the house is quiet I want my turn to spill the beans about my day, but did I mention the house is alreay quiet .... meaning everyone is asleep.

I was in church Yesterday and were were singing a song that spoke in such a big way to me. I feel sometimes so overwhelmed and like no one really understands. I feel like at times since I do work and am in someways starting a family ( eventhough by the time a person has 3 their family should be well established) that I don't really fit in with the norm. It is a struggle that I deal with because I sometimes feel so unequipt for life. I just go on a wing and a prayer and hope I am doing the correct thing. Anyway.... The words to the song go like this:

I have a Maker, he calls me his own. Before even time began my life was in HIs hands......

He knows my name, He knows my every though, He sees each tear that falls and He hears me when I call.

I thought to myself. What more could a person want. What more could a person ask for. HE knows me for me. He thinks I am so important and he hears my heart everytime I call out, and even when I forget to.

This blog I know seems down, but it is not meant to. It is so wonderful to know that even when life is blowing like a hurricaine that he is the calmness and the steady anchor that holds me in place.

He is so concerned with little me, just as I am concerned with the skinned knee or the empty bottle, or even the hard day that comes in on my husbands shoulder's.

It's such a nice thought!!!!

Nesting or Spring Cleaning?????

Well today I have hit this house hard. Of course who knows why it is already in the process of being messed up again. I have to brag because I never do the things I have done today. I have cleaned base boards. Bleached my whole bathroom including the jets in my tub (YUK!!!) I have vacuumed and swept, mopped and dusted... I have found a new love for Murphey's oil soap. I have washed my cabinets and floors. And done some laundry. It is all the type of cleaning that you and only you knows that you did. Caleb came in and I told him all I did and he was very uninterested. I know he is glad it is done, but to him it was fine the way it was. I have washed 10 totally white cloths that were black by the time I finsihed with them. Oh and I rearranged the furniture in Peter's room to make more room for the new baby. I am in the process of washing the clothes that will go on the new baby when he is born. Most are hand me down's those are the best.

Oh well I am proud of myself because I usually stop have way through and never really finish.

I am tired now and so I think I will put the kids down for a nap and stick my swollen feet up.

I found out yesterday that the baby is breech so we are all praying that he will turn. I am sure he will. Guess I better get ready though for whatever is to come.